My Blog and Journey with PTSD

Thanks for joining me! "Drop by drop of water will fill even the largest pot with water. Likewise accumulating good, little by little you'll become goodness itself" Buddhist Saying Hi, welcome to my blog. My name is Alejandro and I want to share my story with you in hopes in even the smallest ways it…

Tendrils Consume #poetry

Photo by Federico Bebber Tendrils Consumed by Alejandro N. Marrero 7/10/2020 Tendrils of smoke arise from no source and wrap my skin spontaneously following an unplanned courseIt’s not been contemplated enough to understand the cause or if will choke my insides or worseConsumed by shadows that are warm but cool to the very wrapping touchI…

Rain Pours on Me #poetry

Rain Pours On Me by Alejandro N. Marrero 7/7/2020 Rain pelts the glass above and all around our room with thunder’s roarsAfter an Afternoon of scorching heat I imagine my garden hungers for the clouds heavy storesWide awake as my anxieties quake from restlessness from painful pastsI dream up distances or a walk away from…

Definitely You #Poetry

It’s Definitely You by Alejandro N. Marrero 7/6/2020 He says I’m emotionally bankruptNever knows what’s going on in my head or what involves usIt’s true I hesitated before I answeredIt’s true I choose silence over reactionsYet everything left of what he said was wrongIt’s not a lack of feelings it’s a lack of expressing anything…

Chaotic Silence #Poetry

Chaotic Silence by Alejandro N. Marrero 7/2/2020 I’ve been given silence as a weapon and fell in love with its promisesThe facade of fortitude in my mind has nothing and acted out in dominancesWith a casual hand placed near the ground I feel I can crack this world like a cometThat would surely make a…

Born to Die Atoned #poetry

Born to Die Atoned by Alejandro N. Marrero 7/1/2020 With a sparkle in my usually dim mind I reach out for those who’s lives I let take up residence, yes Residents, in my heartI’m good at pretending I’m never bothered even if that may be true or not from the delayed or finished startWhen I…

Flower, Stones and Leaves #poetry

Flower, Stone and Leaves by Alejandro N. Marrero 7/1/2020 An effervescence for the balance they steal and I requireA simplistic elegance of flower, stone, leaves and desiresI’m the conjurer of lists as many a thoughts evade my periphery with my lack of focusYet, it’s the ones dearest to me that I keep farther than the…

Theoretical Buddhist Thoughts

In the limitless space between thoughts exists immeasurable world systemsThe fullness of the expanse that is accessed by the purest of minds many beings of light gather in coexistenceThe rays of their unfettered minds shine like star beams in every luminous directionWhen such a force that is free of force, at ease or settled in…

Elusive Solitude #poetry

Elusive Solitude by Alejandro N. Marrero6/23/2020 Waking up in the afterthoughts of sleeplessness, my mind becomes fragile and wrongMental fortitude weakens and divisive thoughts prove to the world I’ve never been strongIt’s a new day which started earlier than it should, always does and I’m made lesser for itEndlessly blurred visions, vacant stares and horrifying…

The middle of Right

The Middle of Right by Alejandro N. Marrero 6/21/2020 There’s a tangle on the horizontal that feels like a sleeps surrendering sighIt’s that feeling we don’t remember unless we’re drinking or get very highI’m not one to be sucker punched into variables or things that tread the road of paths gone leftI’m just a human,…

Hear No, Speak No #Poetry

Hear No, Speak No by Alejandro N. Marrero 6/12/2020 I find myself biting my tongue and forcing musical silence into my earsAnything to not rage out loud or be bothered while I’m busy hereIt matters not if anyone’s intentions are the pure, lovely, handsome or the bestWhen you’re never alone sometimes you want to be…