February 19, 2020 #VLOG #PTSD

Ahh omg only two two-hour sessions of sleep but a nap helped me make my way to the local pet store to grab the awesome Female Betta's in video for a Large tank! So I guess conquered a bit of my agoraphobia today. I'm super anxious right now cause it happens every time I drive…

No Deep Sleep #Poetry #Insomnia

No Deep Sleep by Alejandro N. Marrero 2/19/2020 Always in bed, laying awake and tiredInsomnia is how this brain is wiredTaking several pills to help me sleepEvery night it’s never long or deepMy nerves are shot, short and frayedHead agitated and screaming why must it be this way? Everyday it’s the same thingsI get in…

City Heights #poetry

City Heights by Alejandro N. Marrero 2/17/2020 Even on a boulder the city isn’t very farI’m near enough to be disturbed from sounds of pressing carsI climb here to be utterly alonePraying for divinity that’s never ever shown Even from the hill top, the lights litter the groundIt’s taken hours to get here yet it…

Stars Fall #Poetry

Stars Fall by Alejandro N. Marrero 2/17/2020 Stars fall light years from here.It may be theory but there’s science to hear.Ever wonder what sound a comet makes?Would it tickle with harmony as it’s beats break?That’s just me.Gazing at the night sky constantly. Stars fall just like AngelsLucifer sung in all the octavesHe didn’t grow scales…

I need sleep #insomnia

Horrible nightmares, uncomfortable bed. This is three days without sleeping enough. 😦 Going to have to go on the first and see what meds can be added to the cocktail so i can sleep. Cause I’m just not thriving.