Locked Aways #poetry #writing

Locked Aways by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/25/2020 People always assume they know every dynamic part of our lives and are rarely rightThey just nod their head when you correct them or have to explain your own battles, failures or fright.I’m not like everyone else in more ways than noneI’m just incredibly good at hiding when…

Vengeful Dreams #poetry #writer #ptsd

Vengeful Dreams by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/21/2020 These nightmares are long, vivid, relentless and I fear never going awayThey quicken my heart, spark the adrenaline, fright or flight snapping my eyes open before it’s even dayI do what feels right, breathe slowly in and out to calm the constantly emerging sleeping anxietiesNothing seems to help…

Mind Never Mine #poetry #writing

Mind Never Mine by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/14/2020 I’m mortified by what fear has molded me into becomingThere’s a bipolar uprising between choices of sloth, yoga and runningI want to pull out my hair when I’m torn from my routinesI feel guilty for no reason or maybe several and never know what it means Why…

Life’s Insistence #poetry #dark

Life’s Insistence by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/13/2020 We all end up dying no matter how hard we try not to think about itCome to terms with the fact each day is not guaranteed even if desperately wantedI used to fear the end of times or the darker shadowy recesses of my mindNow I realize darkness…

Meditation Space #poetry #meditation

Meditation Space by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/11/2020 This humble tiny spot in my room I’ve begun the path to peaceWhere I can sit down comfortably and meditate to put my mind at easeWe cannot leave our homes so Buddhist teachings are on zoom or Facebook liveIt matters not to me as long as I’m able…

Sleepless because #PTSD sucks

It doesn’t matter what I do the chronic symptoms of PTSD are only muted slightly by medications. I’m sleeping again so few hours and my nightmares are waking up frightened. I’ve had a lot to deal with lately. Grandmother and our Cat died. It certainly is pouring. Usually I was pretty good about working on…