I need sleep #insomnia

Horrible nightmares, uncomfortable bed. This is three days without sleeping enough. 😦 Going to have to go on the first and see what meds can be added to the cocktail so i can sleep. Cause I’m just not thriving.

why am I’m up at 2am again

Because of insomnia, nightmares and dreams of course Two hours, and that’s broken sleep of course ugh! I tell you without fail. Or at least I think I’ve told you. Honestly can’t ever remember. I’ll have okay days where I’ll sleep close to 5-7 hours then basically nothing. How have I survived this long? Ugh…

Fading Memories #poetry

Fading Memories by Alejandro N. Marrero 2/8/2020 I should be restingInstead I’m laying in my bedBoundless thoughts inside this very headBuilding dams to stop the floodsBut I’ve never been strong enoughOnce or twice but wow is it toughIt doesn’t make sense but enough is enough I should relaxEverything went well why do I overthink it?Thoughts…

Hands Extended #poetry

Hands Extended by Alejandro N. Marrero 2/3/2020 Keeping my hands extendedI find balance to kick it all awayThe terrible traumasThe things you repeatedly saidWith poise I chucked you far awayThis time you’re gone not invited to stay Is my life worth it?Feeling unworthy bit by bitAn attachment to things I’d thought I’d beInstead I stare…

Never Going Back #poetry

Never Going Back by Alejandro N. Marrero 2/3/2020 Two auspicious fishesTo grant benevolence’s wishesTwo glorified carpsThat don’t swim in the darksIt’s funny how now you understandNot like quicksand or my tansThat you’d wish for something you already hadA person you destroyed real bad To suspicious these wishesFor your tired broken promisesTwo glorified and epic liesAs…

Karmic Panics #poetry

By Alejandro N. Marrero 02/02/2020 Karmic Panics by Alejandro N. Marrero When you met it was magicYou threw out the panicsYou loved your second chanceYou’re sweet do-over and second RomanceHe’s was fully a manHe was from your homeland.It didn’t matter he was darkerBecause even shorter he made you feel tallerYou could finally move onYou could…