Anxiety Why?

I’m up late again. That wasn’t the plan but none of these effing pills are calming me down. It’s physical and mental. It’s horrible and useless. It’s drought with agitation without a definitive cause. The mindful breathing isn’t even slowing my heart rate and I’m lying down. I’m annoyed for no reason. I want to…

Locked Aways #poetry #writing

Locked Aways by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/25/2020 People always assume they know every dynamic part of our lives and are rarely rightThey just nod their head when you correct them or have to explain your own battles, failures or fright.I’m not like everyone else in more ways than noneI’m just incredibly good at hiding when…

Vengeful Dreams #poetry #writer #ptsd

Vengeful Dreams by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/21/2020 These nightmares are long, vivid, relentless and I fear never going awayThey quicken my heart, spark the adrenaline, fright or flight snapping my eyes open before it’s even dayI do what feels right, breathe slowly in and out to calm the constantly emerging sleeping anxietiesNothing seems to help…

Triggered Sinner #poetry #triggers

Triggered by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/13/2020 I read a book today and it reminded me of all the terrible thing they used to do and sayHow mean they were to me because I was different how they cared for me less because I was simply gayI went from having everything a kid needed in life,…

Always Awake #Poetry

Awake Always by Alejandro N. Marrero 2/23/2020 I do everything rightDon’t quarrel or fightAgain though peace crumbles nearly every nightThis sleep easily gotten by all who’ve forgotten Is easy for most everyone even the rottenIt’s still kept inconveniently too far from meAs I lay here again, awake, with eyes blurred, hard to see I wish…