Born to Die Atoned #poetry

Born to Die Atoned by Alejandro N. Marrero 7/1/2020 With a sparkle in my usually dim mind I reach out for those who’s lives I let take up residence, yes Residents, in my heartI’m good at pretending I’m never bothered even if that may be true or not from the delayed or finished startWhen I…

Elusive Solitude #poetry

Elusive Solitude by Alejandro N. Marrero6/23/2020 Waking up in the afterthoughts of sleeplessness, my mind becomes fragile and wrongMental fortitude weakens and divisive thoughts prove to the world I’ve never been strongIt’s a new day which started earlier than it should, always does and I’m made lesser for itEndlessly blurred visions, vacant stares and horrifying…

Hear No, Speak No #Poetry

Hear No, Speak No by Alejandro N. Marrero 6/12/2020 I find myself biting my tongue and forcing musical silence into my earsAnything to not rage out loud or be bothered while I’m busy hereIt matters not if anyone’s intentions are the pure, lovely, handsome or the bestWhen you’re never alone sometimes you want to be…

Locked Aways #poetry #writing

Locked Aways by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/25/2020 People always assume they know every dynamic part of our lives and are rarely rightThey just nod their head when you correct them or have to explain your own battles, failures or fright.I’m not like everyone else in more ways than noneI’m just incredibly good at hiding when…

Vengeful Dreams #poetry #writer #ptsd

Vengeful Dreams by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/21/2020 These nightmares are long, vivid, relentless and I fear never going awayThey quicken my heart, spark the adrenaline, fright or flight snapping my eyes open before it’s even dayI do what feels right, breathe slowly in and out to calm the constantly emerging sleeping anxietiesNothing seems to help…

Moon Tides #poetry

Moon Tides by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/19/2020 There’s a force in my head that rushes powerfully in every possible directionIt builds then crests and can be possibly delusional or broken my adept precisionMy mind is electrical, charged and filled with persistent chatter or unruly noiseI turn my attention to silence, laying still, body not moving…

Mind Never Mine #poetry #writing

Mind Never Mine by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/14/2020 I’m mortified by what fear has molded me into becomingThere’s a bipolar uprising between choices of sloth, yoga and runningI want to pull out my hair when I’m torn from my routinesI feel guilty for no reason or maybe several and never know what it means Why…

Triggered Sinner #poetry #triggers

Triggered by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/13/2020 I read a book today and it reminded me of all the terrible thing they used to do and sayHow mean they were to me because I was different how they cared for me less because I was simply gayI went from having everything a kid needed in life,…

Life’s Insistence #poetry #dark

Life’s Insistence by Alejandro N. Marrero 5/13/2020 We all end up dying no matter how hard we try not to think about itCome to terms with the fact each day is not guaranteed even if desperately wantedI used to fear the end of times or the darker shadowy recesses of my mindNow I realize darkness…